elvis costello was amazing.
we went to park st. tavern to have a beer first. magic hat on tap! yay!
then we went to bar louie, because, well, it was across the street. i had soft pretzels that were fairly redeeming.
dude, i said i wasn't going to drink, one: because i hardly ever drink, and two: i refuse to pay NINE dollars for a plastic cup of beer. yeah, like the ones they have at frat parties.
but, i did. because, i kept getting up to buy the boys beer, because it was my fathers day present to my dad and shawn. so ... i drank. and, i'm a loud mouth, and this woman wouldn't sit the fuck down. i don't care if you're having a good time. but, no one was standing up. these weren't shitty seats. i paid 100 bucks a seat for these. why aren't you sitting down? i kept asking her to sit down, and she wouldn't, so i threw a nickel and hit her in the back of the head, and then she sat down. wtf. seriously. but, it was so much fun, and they played roxanne, and shawn was excited, and sting didn't get electrocuted, so it was a let down, but it was good, because elvis kept doing these cute little side kick things. so adorable, omg.
i purposefully held off on seeing juno in the theaters because i didn't know how i would react to it. (i normally am a blubbering mess when it comes to movies about unplanned pregnancies ... urgh, i know.) so we watched it last night, and i absolutely hated it.
i don't think it was amazing, i think it was sad, i walked away from the ending, and i only really liked the soundtrack. and brenda.
my dad is obsessed with the soundtrack, but he's been obsessed with mott the hoople for a long time, and don't even get cletus started on the kinks. my dad is so amazing. anyway, i liked lars and the real girl, but i fell asleep before it really got into it. i think ryan goslin is so cute.
juno totally blew my week.
i'm making dandelion salads for dinner tonight, and leiny's summer shandy was so delicious last night, i think i'm going to buy some and stock up for this week.
shawn does nothing but ride his bike when emery is asleep/away. it's so adorable. he calls his friends and they go 'riding'. he bought a pretty nice bike, a 'trick' bike. this bike stuff is entirely lost on me, so i just smile and try to absorb it.
my garden behind the garage is starting to take off, and i'm super excited about it! tomatoes, and greens, and strawberries, and herrrrbs. so exciting.
jamie's birthday is tomorrow, and she's going to be 25, and i'm all "oh my god, twenty-five!" uhh, i'm already twenty-five. duh.
we're cooking out for patty's dinner tonight, so that's something to look forward to. our top deck is completely torn down, and the lower deck is being extended to the edge of the house, and a fire pit going in. what's nice is we don't have to pay for any of the supplies, because my dad's "buying" them for me, for mother's day. i'm practical. i don't want candy, i don't eat that shit. i want lummmber. and a nice, stone firepit.
THE CAMPER IS GONE. 4/20/08 - NEVER FORGET.
i don't know how i did it, but i found my brothers!
i wrote dante, who must've sent the email to damon, who sent me a message on myspace, after dante wrote me back.
this is the second greatest day of my life (emery's birthday, being numero uno).
i'm so excited, i truly cannot think straight.
i have a family, and two of them, may or may not be fucking insane like the rest of them.
Emery's first birthday party was absolutely amazing. Although there were a million and six people here, I had to hand decorate 43 (!) cupcakes, and I had a bit too much wine. Here are some GREAT pictures!
I love my life!
Some family ...
Seriously, it's my dealer's Mom and her Grandson, and Shawn ...
Emery's 1st cupcake!
I fucking hate having my picture taken.
My boogrz is all grown up!
Her million dollar wagon. :]
Trying to escape.
Aidan is so handsome.
The hostess with the mostest alcohol content. Gross.
Words cannot express.
Emery turned a year old today, and I had very mixed feelings about it all.
I was excited that she is growing up, excited that she will soon be experiencing all the fantastic and amazing things about life, excited to watch her grow into the amazing person I know she's going to be.
And, then I was sad, because she's already a year old, and she's not a baby anymore, she's a toddler. And, she doesn't let me hold her like a baby, or kiss her like she's a baby, or rock her like she's a baby.
But, she's pointing to things, saying a few words, walking/running, exploring things, pushing boundaries. But, this time next year, she's going to be two, and I'm going to be going through these same emotions, and I hope I can handle them. I have to be able to handle them. She's turning into a lady, she sits in her own chair, by herself, she eats on her own, she plays independently.
Most of my friends have children, and the ones that don't, don't understand this; they don't want to. It's their choice, and I can totally dig it. I wouldn't be a kid person had I not had Emery. This is totally honest, I don't like most kids, but my own. They're dirty, and smelly, and germy, and rude, and touchy, and sensitive, and theydontlistenforshit.
Emery has also taken to dancing when a song strikes her fancy. I used to make her little baby body dance to Justin Timberlake when she was little, and now it seems that she has less of a discriminating palate.
I'm excited for her party, I'm excited to bake three dozen cupcakes (white, red velvet, strawberry w/ strawberry filling!), strawberry and regular rice krispies, pink sugar cookies, and tons of other snacks! I can't wait!
Tonight we hung all of our new light fixtures, and, I know it's totally nerdy and lame but I was so excited!
AND OUR NEW COUCH CAME.
I know it's very materialistic, but our old couch stank. Literally.
And, this thing:
ate my old one.
Here's Em on her birthday:
Shawn and I bought the most beautiful iMac desktop. It has no tower or whatever it's called. How fancy. I justified the 2k purchase with the fact that Shawn and I have not made any selfish purchases for ourselves since Emery was born. (She'll be one on 2 April!) So, we bought it, and it despite the fact that the only thing I ever buy myself is shoes, I felt immense guilt. Ha.
So, now I'm all up-to-date on technology and stuff. And, I'm going to start bugging Annie and Thomas every time they're online, because they're my only friends. Seriously.
Shawn's beard is starting to look ridiculous!
Emery looks nothing like us:
emery's first birthday is rapidly approaching, and i can't be happier.
i miss my friends, but, they all have very busy lives of their own.
one day, we'll all play catch-up.
2008 has been a shitty year so far, and i hope it starts to look up.
but, otherwise, my 11 month-old daughter keeps me busy, active, and on my toes. i'm making her dress for her birthday party, and then an outfit for later that night. haha, my life is so tame/lame now.
i'm boring myself with my own livejournal, sry guyz.
Emery will be a year old in about six weeks, which is crazy. My life is good.
|kate nash, thnx, vicki.|
i know that not havings kids is as good as having kids to some people, but one of the top ten reasons why having emery has changed my life for the better is knowing that when the time comes, i can give her books and music and expose her to art that helped shape me as a person. these things that i hold so closely to, will be things that even if emery doesn't prefer them, she'll have experienced them. that makes me more excited for her to grow up, so i can meet who she'll be.
i never thought i would be a parent, but, things happen, and when they do, change is hugely inevitable. i feel i'm changed for the better. and forever. and, i'll know that i will always be responsible for someone's happiness, regardless of what i'm feeling. and that is fucking heavy.
she'll be seven-months-old on 2 november, and six days later i turn twenty-five.
my birthday dinner will probably be at otani again, just because it was supremely delicious last time, and sake bombs sound delightful. followed by, more than likely, a drive to cleveland to get tattooed. i'm so excited. a new tattoo, and probably getting my fifteen hearts fixed up a bit. whee!